A NEW CHAPTER IN THE BOOK OF LIFE

I given this a lot of thought. I am not trying to be morose or asking for pity but I am writing this as a therapy for the new journey I am taking. As most of you know, I lost my beloved husband Bob in April. Of course my life has changed. I have had days and days of crying, pacing the floor, looking out the window, and begging God to help me. I finally said, "enough, get a grip, thousands of ladies out there have been through what you are going through and they made it......you can too!" I think I am unique, that no one loved their spouse as I loved mine....not true. So I am moving on and this blog is going to help me and maybe someone out there will benefit from my words also.  I am going to continue with my recipes, as cooking is my therapy. I'll always love to cook, it will just be different. I had just learned to adjust recipes to cooking for two and now I'll cut it one more time.......to cooking for one. I am sure this won't be daily but as often as I have thoughts and food I want to share.
Going through this difficult time.......I find my mind just races with different ideas and things I need to do. One day I packed up all of my painting supplies and put them away in the garage. The next day I woke up and said, "Why did I do that, do I think I'll never paint again?!" I move things around in the house from place to place and then suddenly I have everything right back where I started from. So, now I realize I must just take my time and eventually I will find the right answers.
So, quite a bit of TV time right now. I have full control of the remote. Cooking shows do tend to top my list and I was watching Rachel Ray the other day when her guest was Heidi Klum, whom happens to be a great cook. Heidi made her mothers recipe of Sauerkraut Soup, looked so good I immediately jumped up and made it. It was really good and I do want to share the recipe. Oh, I have no eating schedule now.....eat when I am hungry........actually quite nice. Yesterday I had a rib eye at 10:00 am!

Sauerkraut Soup:
3 med onions
1 lb hamburger
2 cups chopped mushrooms
1  2lb bag of sauerkraut (I used canned.....don't drain)
1  28oz diced tomatoes
1 cup vegy broth (I used chicken broth)
1 bottle of shish kebab sauce......no where to be found in OK.....I used a little bottled
            sweet n sour sauce and generous amount of hot sauce
2 cups water
1/2 cup cream
Brown onions and hamburger, add mushrooms.
Add sauerkraut, tomatoes, broth and the kebab sauce....add water as needed.
Just before serving, stir in the cream.....do not let come to a boil!
Misty suggested adding navy or pinto beans.......good idea.
Now I know that this sounds more like a winter dish but I have found that in the hot days of summer, I just want something light and soup is always good. Of course the rib eye was an exception. Enjoy!